Zindagi

Zindagi ke baare mai soochna chod diya humne
Zindagi jeene jo lage the ab

Zindagi ka ‘dissection’ karna chod diya  humne
Har pal ko jeena seekh rahe the ab

Zindagi ke boj ke tale daabna chod diya  humne
Zindagi pankh faylaye azaad uud rahi thi ab

Zindagi ka nazariya badal kar dekha to
Zindagi muskurane lagi thi ab 

Change

Changes in life is inevitable. And it is with these changes that we change too, unknowingly, maybe unwillingly. But then could unknowingly and unwillingly be together? Can you change without knowing and not like what you've become? Its amazing how the strong, confident, seemingly heartless you just transform into this mellow, down to earth women who cries at the drop of a hat. And all this happens without even realizing when, where, how all that happened. Wonder if this change is temporary. Wonder if the strong side is just tucked away in the corner waiting patiently for someone to use it. Wonder if the old me will ever be visible to myself again. Because in all these years lots have changed. Don’t really know if it was all for the good or not though. Maybe it was. Maybe it wasn’t. Only time can tell. 

An (extra)ordinary woman

A small talk with her,
soothes the soul.
Life feel much better,
Lo and Behold!

Many a virtues,
she did uphold.
Patiently listening,
to every story told.

We shouted at her,
but then again cared.
Took her for granted,
yet our life she shared.

Dodging, weaving, balancing,
she played the game of life.
a child, a wife and a mom,
was the ONLY story of her life.

Things change with time,
we now have our own life.
But still SHE remains,
the mother and the wife.

Loss and gain...

Without any fault somebody lost a friend today. She once proudly said her friends are as important to her as her family, but today she took yet another step into the true world, away from her idealistic one, hoping for the gains to outweigh the loss.

Marriage

He started with two different clay,
one for strength and one for shape.
Fifty percent of each he mixed in a tray,
placed it on wheel and swirled with grace.

He tried his best to get the shape,
but it just would not curve that way.
The percentage was thus re-shaped,
clay of shape was voted to stay.

A big smile crossed His face,
as He got the perfect grace.
It was however not yet done,
as it would crack in the sun.

Now He used the clay of strength,
for the cracks which needed a mend.
Timely marriage of both was sought,
to created the PERFECT pot.

The changed definition

When she's seven,
IT means admiration.
When she's eleven,
IT changes to adoration.

When she's sixteen,
IT's her life
When she's twenty,
IT's the only thing that's right

At twenty-six,
IT's meaning's not sure anymore.
At twenty-nine,
IT's what she wants no more.

With time IT's definition change,
the constant thing is only the name.
That is when she does realize,
IT's what now defines her life.

Love and Cry

When you love,
love like a child.
True, sincere,
unconditional and wild.

When you cry,
cry like a child.
Deeply, completely,
leaving the past behind.

But be sure to grow up,
and not live like a child.
For one must know,
how it feels to love and cry.

Greener grass...

Remember the real-life love stories narated by your grandmom? Back in those days they talked about one love, true love. They could never believed that anyone could love more than one person in ones lifetime, no not only one lifetime but seven. Why only seven I have no clue. But that is how it was back in the good old days, when life was simpler and so were the people. Most of the stories were either they fell in love with this guy next door and got married or they got married and then fell in love with their husband. Thats was how it was back then. Love and husband were practically the same word.

Nowadays when you have atleast two to three different people you had relation with, cared for and loved with all your life at some point in time, whom do we call the love of our life? Is it by default the one with stays with you forever? So is true love defined by the duration of the stay? Don't we unconciously try to compare our past with our present?

Wonder if the reason for all the complications, mess and frustrations of our day to day life has something to do with the fact that we've seen and researched too much on life. It seems that the more we get out in the world, the more independent we become and the more we start living for ourselves.... by ourselves, we seem to forget totally that compromise, adjustment and sacrifice can bring happiness too. We seem to have become so well versed with OUR wants and not that of the OTHER that in the process we've lost our peace of mind.

I guess our grandads had their own good reasons for not letting their wife out to work as NOW we have two complicated and frustrated souls TRYING to live happily together and balance their life instead of back then when ONE frustrated soul was HELPED by the other perfectly happy one in balancing his life. And then they say we've made our life much easy through development! But then is'nt grass always greener on the other side?

The Room...The chair.....

Filled with anticipation, she opened the door of the room. Her pre-conceived notion was that it’s going to be empty. The usual people who are always there might still be there, but in the corner of the room there would be an empty chair just for her! As she opened the door of the room this beautiful chair caught her sight. She loved it the instant she saw it. And fortunately for her it was empty too, just like she had thought. Slowly and steadily she approached the chair, her mind were full of thoughts. How would it feel to sit on it? Will it adjust to her idiosyncrasies? Would she get used to its shape? With all such thoughts she walked towards the chair. As she got nearer, she felt her favorite chair was occupied. It had been used earlier, she knew it, but the previous owner had left it long time back. Was she wrong then? Had the previous owner come back again and she never knew about it? Or was it just a figment of her imagination, her insecurities, playing the trick on her? Showing her things which did not exists. 'The chair IS empty' thought she, though it had been previously occupied. The quicker she believes that the better for her!

What changes?

They were in college
They were in love
They knew each other
They cared a lot

Three years went by,
the best of their lives
Mutual respect and care
was no suprise.

Then came the day
they parted their way
Different priorities
were at stake.

In touch since then,
they've lived separate lives
She had her home
He had his wife

Time changed it all
thats what they claim
But somehow the respect
was still the same

What is it then,
that time did change
if respect and care
was just the same?

Those were the days...

She saw him from the corner of the window of her room. Her heart skipped a beat. Just the sight of him was so wonderful. She never really talked with him, but had lived with him, told him all her secrets in her dreams. One day she saw him smiling at her, she felt great inside. It was an emotion she could not describe. Then she slowly grew up. Just seeing them stirred no emotion in her anymore, but yes talking did. Then she grew up even more, finally nothing stirred her anymore. Wonder why passion die with age. What is it that get killed during the process of aging?

"With every person you meet you either die a bit or are born a bit"-I totally believe in the truth of the statment. Seems like your current state is the result of this excercise of dying and living that you go through evertime you meet someone new, be it in the form of a friend, boyfriend, aquaintence, neighbours or even relatives.

Wonder what I would have been like had I not met the people I met. If I had not closely known such varied personalities in my life, would it have been possible for me to be as open minded as I am. Then again is it that I met these personalities so I am what I am or is it that I am close to them because of what I am. If the later is true then can we say that we are the results of our environment? Or is it that we choose our environment according to what we are?

Post Bridges of Madison County

Yes best things come in small packages, so does that mean that the one night stands are the best things that can happen for anybody? Are they more enjoyable because they are short lived or because it gives us the feeling of no responsibility? Does that mean that your husband is not the best thing to happen to you, even if at the time of marriage you think he is?? Is it actually possible to find Richard and Robert in the same person, or would any Robert eventually turn into Richard if he would have stayed with her? And if Robert did turn into another Richard then which one is the so called 'TRUE LOVE'......how do we define it.....or how do we know when we find it?

Crushes...love...friendship..relationship

Crush can be defined as any emotion that does not last long, has lust as a major component and the initial stage of love.

Love on the other hand is something eternal. Something more concrete and pure. Its said to be all about giving without any notion of scales or measurements involved.

Friendship now thats really hard for me to define...its said that love is the hardest thing to define, but I wonder if any defination of friendship can do justice to the relationship. We do love our friends and at some point in time we may had some attraction for our friends. So its defination sure involves both crush and love, so is friendship the best type of relationship to have.

Ideally love should be defined as the combination of both crush and friendship. Well to some extend it might be true, as crushes can develope into love and with time love can develope into friendship.

So if friendship is a combination of crush & love and love is a combination of crush & friendship whats the difference between the two? I guess its true that LOVE IS UNDEFINED, and thats the best way to solve this puzzle :)

The first step...

Have you ever seen a child take his first step. He's so cautious about each step and everytime he falls he needs someone to assure him its ok to stand up and walk again. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever grow up. Do people actually ever grow up as far as their own private world is concerned? I guess they do, but somehow I just love being a child too!

Laptop & Relationship

Bought a new laptop two weeks back. Was totally excited about it. Wasted the whole day waiting for it. Now its been two weeks since I got it. In these two weeks the excitement have died, but it has become a necessity for me. The care for it just came so naturally. It was because I got what I wanted from it. Not that it did not trouble me. But I was willing to take the trouble because what I got in return was worth it. Is'nt relationship suppose to be the same. You go for it only when you feel the trouble is worth it!

Boredom...

'Boredom is caused not by physical closeness but by being mentally and spiritually apart'....Richard Bach.

Yet I wonder how many of the successful marriages are based on mental and spritual closeness. In his book Bach points out that there are two approaches to marriage.
Some see marriage as a chess game where the ultimate aim of the two individual is to outweigh the other. Others see marriage as a building up of a sonata-a musical composition of movements of contrasting forms-working towards building up a harmonious tune together.

Well realistically speaking I think in most cases marriages do not follow one of the two approaches strictly but rather a combination of the two. Perfect mental and spritual closeness is an ideal situation, not a realistic one, as every individual is unique! So I wonder what is it that keeps one going when one is bored-apartness?? so that one can make a fresh start all over again? But then again with too many fresh starts you may never reach your destination. This seems like a vicious cirlce!!!

Time...Healer???

I have seen so many of them. They get into a relationship so that they can move on in life. Forget about their past and hope nothing like this will ever happen again. Moving on is a must....but should we use someone else to move on in our life? How truthful can something be if it is not spontaneous, if it requires an effort? Moving on is necessary, but does'nt the past try to cling on to you more, the more effort you take to get rid of it? So is it not better to just take life as it comes, using no extra effort to come out of a situation, but rather let time be the best healer?

Dead?

The cars not washed,
the rooms not clean.
You have tons to do
but you stare at the screen.

Yes you laugh with them
that too a hearty one.
But once they are gone,
you are no more on the run.

How do you manage,
to radiate the energy
the source of which
is dead for centuries.

You sleep all day,
your spirits all dull.
And then you wonder,
whats wrong with their calls!

The greatest loss of life
is not death itself
its what dies inside
when you are not dead.

Why??

When they are tensed....they laugh.
When they are excited....they laugh.
When they are sad.........they laugh.
Wonder why most of them hide their emotions behind the veil of laughter. Most of them laugh things off instead of facing them, now is that not a really boring way to deal with life? No wonder they claim themselves to be simple!!
Yes laughther is the best medicine-but is'nt it carrying things a bit too far?

A tree

It had provided shade to all those who sought shelter under it. It was living, evergreen and full of flowers. Children amused themselves with its flowers and the old ones sat under it for hours, pre-occupied in themselves peacefully. Truly it is living in some sense of the word and will continue to do so till the roots die out.

Wonder why.......

- People cannot form opinion about a person on their own, without taking into account what others have to say about the person concerned.
- People waste more time judging others than themselves.
- It is so difficult for those close to you, to digest the fact that you can be wrong too.
- At times people overlook all the faults of their friends, and then a time comes when its only the faults that they can see, forever.
- People come to conclusions without hearing both sides of the story.
- People pretend to be friendly when they don't want to be friends.

Do we know ourselves??

I wonder how many of us know how we would react to a particular situation. Given a hypothetical situation we can always say what we would do if we ever had to actually face that situation, but how many of us actually end up making the correct prediction about our own behaviour. Its strange how those who can predict absolutely correctly about other, end up making the wrong predictions about themselves. In all these years I've come across so many individuals who comment adversely on how some other person behave given a particular situation and then end up doing something similar themselves, being blissfully unaware of it too! I wonder how many times I've failed similarly. Its strange how easily we can see the mistakes other people make, but are totally unaware of it as far as our own self is concerned.

Reflection....

I have always believed that a person is like a mirror and the behaviour of any person towards you is like the reflection of the rays on the mirror. The angle of the incident ray is equal to the angle of the reflecting ray. Its strange how simple physics can explain such a deep truth about life. Aslo if the surface of the mirror is black you absorb all the light and the world outside is dark. So I guess I have to leasson my absorbtion capacity to make the world more bright. Well after all its for everybody's good.

We know we've grown up....

....when we realize that people around us live for their own self only.
....when we can comfortably be a hypocrite.
....when all our emotions seem to merge into one emotion-INDIFFERENCE.
....when we get so complicated inside that we just fail to see the simple
things in life just as they are-SIMPLE.
....when we always try to read between the lines and in the process fail to
understand the meaning of what is clearly evident.
....when we loose the capacity to be rudely frank to others.

Now if it takes all this to grow up. I'd rather be a kid throughout my life!

The feeling

I pity him for he knows not what the feeling is.
I pity her for she thinks she does.
Unfortunately what they seek can never be found if sought.

The power of Thought.....

One of the powers of human is his or hers capacity to think. It’s a thought which is the root cause of almost all the emotions that we experience- be it anger, happiness, love, criticism, etc. It’s really a pity how most of us don't know about this power that we have. A thought can make a person a god or a demon. A thought can show you the best dream ever so that you sleep peacefully throughout the night or it can take away all the sleep from your eyes. Our thought process should be set right so that the life is right. One might have done a big mistake according to others, but if the thought process is such you will never be guilty about anything you do. So does that mean that we do anything and then just think the most convenient way to do away with all our guilt? Well....I don't think so. I feel we'll loose the power of thought if it is misused. So even though 'thought' is a powerful instrument we need to feed it properly to maintain its strength.

Signs....

God, what the hell am I supposed to do about all the signs that you keep on showing to me time and again? Atleast YOU can help me here. And if you don't plan to help atleast don't try and make things worse for me!! There seriously was no need to distract me in the class, the way YOU did.

Ga(u)rdening.....

She got some rose seeds as gift from her friend. Nowadays she was not interested in gardening anymore; casually she threw the seeds in her small garden near the backyard. Few days later as she was taking a stroll she saw a small rose plant at one corner of the garden. There was something about the plant which forced her to take care of it, nourish it such that it ultimately became a full grown bush. People who visited her could not help noticing the plant. It was beautiful, but sans any bud. Then one day she noticed a small bud. A smile came across her face after a long time. She loved yellow roses, wished it would be a yellow rose plant. Lo and behold her wish was granted! The rose was there for a while before it died its natural death. Then one day she noticed an infected leave. She cut it immediately, hoping against hope that this bush would survive so that more flowers could bloom on it. She bought fertilizers to nourish it. Maybe she took too much care of the plant. It was one of the wild rose bushes which would have grown better when left alone. I guess she did learn her lesson but her interest in gardening was gone again.

And the cycle repeats itself.....

At the corner of the room stood she, seeing the whole play being repeated in front of her. The players were different, that was the only difference. As she stood there, being able to observe things from afar....she wondered whats the point of all this? Silently observing the facts of life. Its a never ending process, thought she. Hopefully she'll be proved wrong sometime.

The real world.....

One thing I've never learnt in all this year is to control my temper. People are what they are. Deep down everyone's nice....naaah.

"The sweet words are just fake words. Even if you are good people might not always be." I'v heard this since ages. Never really believed it, deep inside.

Good that I could protect my innocence for all these years. But now its high time I see the real world. I learnt yet another lesson today. Thanks for showing me the real world.

Bang! Bang! Two shots in the right place is more than enough to kill anybody. Are you still alive? Man, am I proud of you!

Have we lost the capability.......

Most of us nowadays are soo busy trying to analyse whats right and how one should behave or respond given a particular situation that we tend to think too much. And in the process forget to enjoy life as it is. The joy one experiences when someone is absolutely comfortable when talking to you, gives a different kind of happiness to the soul. Human beings are part of the nature and we have modified ourselves enough so as to be called the civilized one. Now that we are so called 'grown ups' and can differentiate the right from the wrong, should'nt we just let everyone be as they are and sit back and enjoy the uniqueness of every individual. Even though we have much in common we are different. Three different people have different style of expressing themselves in their blogs. If we could just learn to appreciate the uniqueness of an individual, I bet life would be much better!!

At times I seriously wonder...

.....whether I do give due respect to all the people who care about me.
.....whether I am to be blamed for all the miseries of my life, or it's just destiny.
.....whether its possible to know oneself completely without a serious relationship.
.....whether nourishing my ego is bad for me or actually helps me maintain my self respect.
.....whether my capibility of understanding and accepting others for what they are, make people use me as a doormat.
.....whether I expect too much from my friends.
.....whether I know the answers to the above, but still am too stubborn to admit them.
.....whether I'm digging my own grave.

Oh man....am I not a Wonder'ful' girl!!!!

Love

We all like roses. Does that mean that we should pluck it from the plant and keep it with us? Or should we rather leave it on the bush and admire it from afar? Though plucking it and keeping it with us will give us more pleasure, leaving it where it belongs, makes it live longer. So if we truly care, we should not interfere with nature. As is the case with rose, so is the case with love.

The state of mind

When the heart is fragile
And the head is tensed
That is the time
When you make no sense

Tried so hard to walk on land
But somehow stepped on quicksand
She demands ten second of my true smile
But I'm sure its gonna take a while

Confidence

When we are kids, its so damn easy. Everyone around us is better than us so all we do is admire and absorb. Questions are there but we just keep them aside,'they are elder to us, they sure know better' is what we think inside. Then come the age when we think of someone as our 'ideal'. He or she is what we want to be. But soon enough we realize there are some things about the person which is not what 'I' would like. So the intensity of idealization decreases. It seems that growing up is like a path towards confidence. As we grow, our confidence in ourselves grows which leads to the growth of things around us which are wrong. We are confident that we are right and hence things which don't go our way is wrong. That is when we start feeling irritated and frustrated. So is confidence the root cause of our irritation. I guess the word is "overconfidence". Kill it before it kills you.

Expression.....

How many of us can express ourselves just as we want to. And why is it that some people understand you better than others, even though you use the same words to express yourselves? What is it about people which helps us to distinguish our close friends from our acquaintances. The answer is simple, friends are those who are of our types. But what exactly is our type? Have we not been friends with those who enjoy exactly those things which we don't. Have not the opposites attracted each other? Then what is it that helps us distinguish our close friends from others?

Weakness

"Weakness is a part of everybody's life. The sooner we realize this the better. We should take time and effort to know ourselves, specially our weakness, and submit to it. Because until we submit to our own weakness we can not overcome them. Actually we must not try too hard to overcome it anyways. Just know them and then be comfortable with it. " This is a concept introduced to me by one of my friends. I don't really know how much of it is true. If we submit to our weakness how can we ever improve. The need to improve comes only when we are uncomfortable with ourselves. But if we submit to our weakness and be comfortable with it.......how do we overcome it?

We are not what we appear to be

We have an image of every person we interact with. Is this image a reflection of his or her true self? Of course not!! Usually the same person creates different images to different people. So which of these images do we actually represent? Ever wondered why we try so hard to mask yourselves. And is it not that even though we try so hard we sometimes somewhere just give ourselves away!
What would happen if we were just ourselves? Would your friends raise an eyebrow? If yes then how much is that friendship worth, anyways.